i’m not even upset about this anymore because i realize it’s really not worth it. i’m kinda just sad now that this all couldn’t have happened with someone else because it would have worked out so nicely. if someone else had done all the things we’d done, talked about the things we’ve talked about, and had the relationship we had, we would’ve been dating by now. but instead, it doesn’t work out at all. 

i could be so hard on myself right now and i could be blaming myself entirely but i’m really not. i have no reason.